07 August, 2006
Just came back from queenstown library wif shaz, steffi, xianyao and rosel. We studied from ard 4 to 8...hahaha of cos tt's inclusive of dessert time at cafe galille or however u spell it la.. heh..shared a chocolate brownie wif vanilla icecream on top wif steffi sugar~yummmmm! super nice can! xianyao din come down wif us..hahha so since we cant exactly bring food up for him, we brought him TISSUES and wrote short msges on it just for him! =D i videotaped the whole process when he read them HAHAH .
anw, quarelled wif my brother just now..over some stupid stuff. He was eating in his room and there were food wrappers everywhere la..even on the bed la pls. So i scolded him and told him to clean up. Guess wad he did..he shouted at me okay..wat the hell la..i mean, wats this pls! He turned the whole thing ard and asked me y am i always shouting at him and look so "no mood" at home..EXCUSE ME..hu wun look like that if the maid wasnt home for 2 whole weeks and had to clean up the house, wash the dishes, do the laundry, buy food for him and still do my hw all at the same time la! I'm just tired okay..wats ur problem ..when i was his age i already had to take care of him, know how to do house chores blah blah blah. Look at urself now la..14 years old cant even use the washing machine, dun even know which stall in the hawker centre sell certain food..For goodness sake u dun even know how to take care of urself..and today u can SHOUT at me. fine.
i want to talk to you.
i want you to hug me and tell me its alrite.
i want to cry in your arms again like a baby.
but i cant.
you're gone forever.
i have to be strong for everyone else when i couldnt.
i miss you so much.
can i visit you in heaven?
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